Jealousy, and the land of raindows (thats a gay ass book title...use it one day)

Jealousy over small things that have a great impact...

well lets grats the teams who won the fresby game 1st...as expected, my class didnt win a shit...not sad?? just kinda unexpected that 3pc guys cant win tho...

i dont really know the girls result as we were busy trying to get back louis' fresby...and cheering from behind the auditorium (hongseng throw it on the roof or sth...louis is a really daring guy man...)

so..back to the subject...what am i do jealous about??

well, theres this few things like, thing i really wanted to do but have nvr do b4 and some1 did it before me...jealous...

ppl could do sth i could do but better...jealous...

but, there r not many who made me jealous so much then HER

she manages to do all 2 things that made me jealous...

and shes sticking her face infront of me every single day, and i cant hate her....

whos that HER???

ITS MY CAT MISSY!!! ><"

i wanted to just lay at home doing nth...but no?! i have to go to school!!!!(not saying that school is 100% bad...)

i wanted to get all i ever wated right where i wanted...but no?! i cant have it...(well, not ALL stuffs)

i want ppl to serve me!! but no?!! im doing stuffs for others...

i just want to care about NTH!!!!! BUT NO!!! THERES SO MUCH THINGS TO CARE!!!

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got so tired today...not only i was running around, i was tired inside....

i have to say, im not happy...

i tried to smile...some natual...some not...

yea, i did...but when i reached home...it all comes back to square one...and im tired of smiling...

some times home dosent funtion like it was or like i wanted to be...

well at least i tried...=)

slowly working to the land of rainbows??